soooooo i went to leadership camp this weekend. i thought it was going to be lame...but it was cool. i met some FUUUUUUUNNNNNNYY people and actually learned a lot of stuff about myself. i got to rock climb (sorta....it was a really good climbing wall) and do a high ropes course. it was sweet to be 40 ft above the ground....kinda freaky though. It was cool....i got to spend all weekend with Pete, our facilitator from highfields. it was funny. he showed up at dinner and was like "hey erin! i didnt know you were gonna be here" "yeah, this is the leadership camp they were making fun of me about" "oooh ok. i never put it together. oh well, their loss". then he made me do crazy things on the high ropes....and i bruised the crap out of my shins.

i finally learned that i dont have to be in charge all the time. it's still really hard, but im working on using my ears more and my mouth less. i know it sounds lame and stuff.....but this weekend really helped me realize that a leader has to lead, not dictate. i dunno...we'll see if i can really change how i do things....its gonna be hard for me to trust that people will get done what they're supposed to.

i think the coolest personal thing we did all week was during a speech last night. this guy was talking to us, and had us do a visual. it started with us in 10 years. who were we married to (if we were married)? do we have kids? where are we working? go into our closet and what clothes are in there? what are we eating for breakfast? what are we driving? who do we see at work and what are they doing? what are we eating for lunch? where at?....it was soooo cool....because i could see everything SO clearly. i wasnt rich, i wasnt famous, but i was happy. i was SO happy. i was married to the love of my life, and i had a sweet little baby girl. i was teaching half music and half english-it was perfect. that was my fantasy....i hope im that happy in real life.

not much else goin on. basketball starts tomorrow. i will be dead. practice 8-10, then media day at breslin from 11-12??, then practice again from 4-6. i am SOOO excited. lol im goin to bed so i dont die. leave me love!